Imposter Syndrome, Self-Destruction, and Me: My Perpetual Loop
Imposter Syndrome, Self-Destruction, and Me: My Perpetual Loop I’ve built this before. The websites. The socials. The blog. My little corner of the internet where I tell my story and share my music. And every time, it starts the same way, full of energy, drive, vision. Then, slowly, it unravels. And, it’s happening again. Since my surgery, I’ve gone quiet. I haven’t posted. I haven’t written. The loop is back. The same one I’ve been trapped in for years. I build momentum. I grow a small community. I start believing I can finally turn this passion into something meaningful. And then that voice creeps in. Who are you to do this? What could you possibly offer that hasn’t already been said better? You’re too old for this. No one wants to hear from you. It’s subtle. It doesn’t yell. It wants to protect me. And before I even realise it, I’ve stopped again. The Loop It starts with fatigue, the grind of work, family, and responsibility. Then comes comparison, watching creators I admir...